Every day I think what my idol said its the naked truth: "The secrets make you sick". Sometimes I feel that not having secrets its the best thing on this cruel world, but then, I just realize that without them, everyone knows what will be our next step and then they can break our goals and dreams without we even try.
Every day I feel more confident about my secret; every day I break myself facing my fears.
I think what can decide to be someone we want or not is yourself. We can decide: Fight, facing every fear we have and do everything to achieve our dreams or quite at the first obstacle.
We chose our future, we chose it now.
- Blue
Saturday, June 30, 2018
Tuesday, June 19, 2018
Dark Night
Today I finished my series where the suicide, sexual assault, and bullying are developed with shock scenes and uncensored. The ending was absolutely shocking, not just the way that ended it but also how everything happened.
There was no justice for the girls who were raped. It made me feel angry because doesn't matter how many girls were raped. Even if we are a thousand the justice was not there.
When I went to sleep, I started to think about that and how much fights we have to win just to "be like boys", it's unfair.
Then, I fell into sleep and I had a dream about that series and I was afraid of everything; a thing that had never happened to me before...
An hour later, I woke up with screamings from the outside, from a girl. At that moment, that scream went by my ear, through my nerves and bones into my brain waking me up. Quickly, I jumped off my bed to see through the window what it was happening.
I felt my heart beat became faster and the growth of my adrenaline obvious. I was afraid.
Afraid of the truth.
-Blue
There was no justice for the girls who were raped. It made me feel angry because doesn't matter how many girls were raped. Even if we are a thousand the justice was not there.
When I went to sleep, I started to think about that and how much fights we have to win just to "be like boys", it's unfair.
Then, I fell into sleep and I had a dream about that series and I was afraid of everything; a thing that had never happened to me before...
An hour later, I woke up with screamings from the outside, from a girl. At that moment, that scream went by my ear, through my nerves and bones into my brain waking me up. Quickly, I jumped off my bed to see through the window what it was happening.
I felt my heart beat became faster and the growth of my adrenaline obvious. I was afraid.
Afraid of the truth.
-Blue
Monday, June 18, 2018
First Day
Here we go, I'm trying to understand how every tool works, but at least posting something right now, it´s enough.
I'm not the type of person whose interest is social media or writing for the strangers behind the screen, but I think this is the only way to feel less lonely as I'm feeling right now.
A place where I can be myself and run away from a mask that I usually use every day to everyone. Where I can tell the truth or lie; show my talent and not be blamed for it.
Welcome to my person, welcome to whom I am.
-Blue
I'm not the type of person whose interest is social media or writing for the strangers behind the screen, but I think this is the only way to feel less lonely as I'm feeling right now.
A place where I can be myself and run away from a mask that I usually use every day to everyone. Where I can tell the truth or lie; show my talent and not be blamed for it.
Welcome to my person, welcome to whom I am.
-Blue
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