Sports

This is my 2nd day of the Christmas Holidays. And this last week some pretty cool and not so cool things happened.

First, we had a tournament and my team was good, not perfect but we could actually win some games and maybe get through the finals.

Before we join our first and only game one of my teammates started to laugh, saying that we were going to win since the other team had players younger than us, I immediately shush him since I believe if we get extra confident things can go off the road.

So, imagine what happened. WE LOST. He first started playing too slow, I could see he wasn't doing his best, and when we were losing by one, he was too unmotivated so basically gave up in the middle of the game. 

MEANWHILE

I was at the bench and was watching the whole game waiting patiently to substitute my mates who could be tired. I only could switch with girls and this one, in particular, she was tired. She was visibly tired, she could keep up with the other team, I was angry, I wanted to enter since I was hype, with full energy, and she was selfish like that. 

This was my last tournament, and I really wanted to give my best, I didn't and that's why I am so mad at them specially.

Otherwise, this senior year I 've been improving my volleyball technique and my teacher is my #1 fan hahah, she always understood my difficulties both physical and psychological, and even though she knows how much effort I put on her class, she always loves that I improve.

For 12 years, I would only make the lower serve, but this year I decided to try the float serve. Since I don't have much upper body strength, I found easier to learn the Jump Float serve. 

I bought a ball, I started to train the technique on my backyard and I got pretty good at it. Every day I was going there and training by myself.  

Once, during the class, we were practicing serves and I was in a good group, so I was chill and willing to try for the first time, doing the serve. I focused, I look at the ball and went for it. I made it! No, it didn´t pass the net but the technique was all there, I just needed to be more confident and attack the ball with more power. 

After that, I was happy but I notice something, my teacher, was looking at me the whole time! As soon as I ended the serve, she went after me and told me that was watching it and it was perfect. I just needed to put more effort into it but the technique was ALL there. I felt too much happiness that day that I went training more and more on the following days.

For the last months, I 've been getting perfect and perfect on it and on the last Friday, we did a mini volleyball tournament, so I got the chance to practice my serves. Again my teacher, told me that I did one serve that was really really perfect. I feel so much happy, its something boogie but when you want to achieve something that you see others doing, and u do it, it's undescribable.

During this holidays I will try me best to keep improving the serve and other more techniques. Right now, this serve is not effective, since I do it really lightly bc I try to focus on the technique and just worry if the ball passes or don't. But slowly I m getting there, and than, I will be the best that I could possibly be.

-Blue

high gay tendencies

I think like a person that likes to enjoy life, lately, I have been the gayest.

I have a neighbor, a girl, she is pretty ASF. My dog loves her's and when I talk to her I think it makes my day. She is older, I don't know exactly her age. I don´t know her name, but I do know that she isn't gay, she had a boyfriend recently. Anyway, I think she is really pretty and she lives next to my door. 

Otherwise, I have this girl in my class. She usually is with another mate of ours and during the breaks, they go somewhere so I can´t actually have a conversation with her. I love her smile, really. But the thing is, I m not a friend of her friend(the second I talk here) but I m a person who likes to joke around and kinda "tease" everyone. My life is based on comedy, and I love the way I am. However, I honestly think that the first girl thinks that I like her mate(the second). I don't at all, but when I talk to her mate I usually smile a lot bc that s who I am, and my "crush" smiles back to us as if she liked the way I talked to her friend.

This is a bit of a mess, but I don't know. I don't think we can actually say that we are in love when we don't even know the person and any details of their life. I m attracted to women right now, I don't think I am gay, I don't think it's a phase. 

I just think that I like to enjoy every moment of my life whenever my tendencies. We all should be more worried about achieving our goals and dreams, rather than to whom we like. 

-Blue

15 DAYS FOR CHRISTMAS.

yep, its getting that time of the year where the Christmas is going to be the next big event and also you gotta start to think all the plans for the new year. I have no idea, bc every single year I have new goals and usually, I don´t even try to accomplish them. But honestly, i truly think that this year is going to be the different one compared to the past 2y. I m gonna set goals, projects, and I will accomplish them. I dont know what are they but I will sleep over them and think.


Next year I will dream....dream BIG.

-Blue

Update of my life

So, I just realized that it's been almost 5 months since my last post. It's weird but somehow I forgot that in here I can be the real person I am and so, I shouldn't forget about it. 
Anyways, since July A LOT happened.

I got a dog...again hahah.
I started gym....again...
I gave up and started a million thousand projects about gym...again 😂~
I started my Senior and Final year of High School.
About the gym, I m still going, like twice a mo. but I will fix this week. About school. It's not been easy, because this year I have much more free time I just procrastinate a lot, like, a lot. So that made me lose time where I could study and get better grades, however, I have been able to keep up with all the things I have to do, and right now, everything it's coming together to the right places.

´bout my future...I just don't know.

At least to the nursing school, I have the guarantee that I m going but I wanna do more than that. I wanted to become an artist but the thing is I AM NOT DOING ANYTHING FOR IT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I just keep playing safe and living every single day like a normal person with a normal future does. I just have so much time, WHY DO I KEEP WASTING IT ON YT AND NOT PRACTICING TO POST COVERS ON YT?????????????????????????
have no idea.

Anyway, in school I am actually thinking in doing the impossible, and repeat my exam from last year to see if I can go to med school. I have no idea if I will get anything from it other than a HUGE headache but I feel that I would blame myself for the rest of my life if I didn't even try when I got the chance. as i already do about music. I feel that my time went over and know I don't have more opportunities to become someone that I want.

-Blue