There is no dream without a dreamer

2 days ago, I faced my worst fear. I showed everyone who knows me that I sing. I uploaded a cover and everyone saw it. Honestly, I was scared for doing that, I took 2 days just to record it because I wanted the video to be perfect, but I did it.

I think I was afraid for doing this because I was afraid to be judge, to be criticised and lost all my few confidence I had in this dream that I care for so long. But honestly, after seeing that people liked it and comment on with positive feedback it made me believe that I can handle this. I can be a good singer and be successful in this business.  I felt good about myself and peaceful after months hiding this secret.

Now, I feel that I can move on and open myself up to this talent. It's time to start fighting to achieve this dream.

-Blue

Exercising make us young.

The past 3 months I've been exercising myself mentally and physically. Going to the gym it's not all about getting skinny or having muscles, the mental part it's also used in having self-discipline and self-control about our diet and schedule.

I have to be honest, I didn't go every day as I planned to, however, I felt that exercising myself made me feel better and with more energy then I had. 

Studies confirm that if we workout for at least 30 minutes before starting our day at the work or school, we have a much progressive day and our concentration level it's higher. This happens because while we are exercising ourselves our brain and heart are exercising at the same time and a simple walk makes our stress level lower, our brain gets extra blood resulting in a faster delivery of oxygen and nutrients with the max. efficiency. Cardio also floods the brain with chemicals that enhance functions such as memory, problem solving and decision making.

That's why when school starts, besides the exercise I will get during the Physical Education class, I am going to walk for at least 30 minutes before school. I will feel physically and mentally better, as such my confidence level will get higher and my self-esteem will get bigger. 

Exercising it's not just for esthetics things, but also for feeling better with ourselves and enjoy our day the best we can.

-Blue

 

Big mouth make us a small person

A few years ago, I lied to my greatest friend(A) at that time and nowadays it's one of the things I regret about my past.

I was 13/14 and my friend A had a good life at the time...good grades, good friends, she was a national champion swimmer and had a thing that every teenage girl wants...a boyfriend. She was always talking about him and how she missed him; her life looked like a dream for me. My self-esteem was low, low confidence, none goals. I was living every day a life just because I needed to.

I needed something to show her that I had a good life too. So I ended up to say that a friend of mine (B), who I used to talk daily and I had a crush on, was my boyfriend. He did not live in the same city as I lived so everything was set on the internet. 

This took 3 months until she found out everything. Until there, I turned a simple best friends messages with B into a bf/gf chat to show her. I created a lot of scenarios as a drama movie, including, meetings that never happened. I was so obsessed that eventually, I started to use a ring that I had and I used to say he offered him to me when he asked me to be his girlfriend.

A found out, she told her best friend so there are only a few persons that know the truth but when this story comes up again I feel the anxiety, the pressure, a bad person. 

Nowadays, I'm always afraid when I play truth or dare with my friends; if they ask me something like "Why did you lie about dating B?" 

I felt jealous of everyone on earth that had their life'love and I did not. I felt that I needed something to have the attention of my friends. I needed that at the time no matter what I needed to invent. 

I think karma hit us stronger than we do and I feel that I will never be able to move on and forget what I did. I will always be afraid if everyone will know that I am a liar...or I was. After what happened I just try to avoid the lies. I learned and it won't ever happen again.

A simple lie can change your future mentally; get your fears high and your person small.

Sometimes a big mouth makes you a small person on earth, no matter how regret is you. 

-Blue

Bullying....online

I saw a movie called " cyberbullying" and I absolutely loved! I think it is a good way to share the message about the new way of bullying that the youngest use or are a victim of it.

This girl was bullied by a group of girls on a website where they expose their life to everyone, including, their intimate life. Nowadays, I think we use so much the internet that we forget that it's more dangerous to text a friend from there then simply call him. We have to be careful if we want to be a safe user on this platform. 

In my past, I really fucked up because of the texting and to whom I texted. When we are only a teen or a child, we don't see the severe consequences of our actions when it's about a chat with a stranger on the internet.

None of all the people wants to meet us and be our friends. On the internet, there are friends, psychopaths, killers, bullies, victims, and a lot of potential danger. 

It's all about us if we wanna use the internet as a dumb or a genius. 

-Blue

Toxic Friendships

Every day I keep working on the process to "delete" all the toxic and unnecessary friendships in my life.

Sometimes, especially when we are teenagers, we think everyone is our friend and everyone it will be good for us and loyal. Let's be honest...That's NOT TRUE! The most of the girls and boys nowadays, are only your friend if they want something from you and when they get it, they will leave you immediately and we end up to suffer for losing one more "friend".

HELLOO?!! Are you there?? Yes? So listen..or read this... Your life WILL NOT OVER because you lost your best friend or that friend you used to have a healthy relationship and used to trust. You will meet new people until the day you are no longer on the earth.

I m just in a part of my life where I start to set all the goals, set the friendships, the goods, and bad memories. I m starting to be an independent human on this huge and messed up Universe.

That's why I needed to say no to those toxic friends, facing my fears, fixing the pendent stuff on my life. That's a good start if we want to become something good and have a good life in the future. 

Sometimes we have to beat on the deepest hole to get up and start fighting strongly and successfully.

-Blue

Setting the goals

A less than a month to start my new school year, I am starting to prepare for it, especially, the mentally part. 

I believe the reason why our grades are not the ones we would like to have it is that the way we study and start the school, mentally speaking. The most of us, lost ourselves in the middle of the run to achieve our goals because we say that we are "not motivated" to get them. I think that's not the right answer.
"I don't achieve my goals because I don´t believe in myself to achieve them" it is the definition for being "not motivated". We need to understand how our mind works and how tools are the best for it. 

That's why I planned carefully the last 3 weeks before I join in a new war with my brain. I'm seeing only videos from the "Be Inspired channel" and trying to avoid the social media to fight against the teen´s addiction during the vacations, the smartphone.

It won't be easy, but from here to a year, I will be glad for doing this and be happy for achieved all my objectives.

-Blue

Love : Truth or Dare??

A month away to start my new school year, these vacations have been the craziest. 

Recently, I joined a group chat where I could meet some fans from around the world that support my idol too and I met some really cool people there. One of them is this girl that lives in Europe and we 've been talking as much as we can. 

She is the kindness, funny and beautiful girl I've ever met. I could know a little bit her path and I can say that she has been a warrior and the strongest for fighting every day to keep herself on game´s life. I really like her and I would like to meet her in real life to know more about her, however, we have more than 1700 km between us. 

I have been different since we started talking; she has the power to bring up the smile on my face and also be the friend that I´ve been looking at a sea of toxic friendships.

I´m really afraid of the internet relationships, we don´t have 100% sure if the person that we keep talking daily is the same behind the screen. We have to trust carefully if we don´t want to be another victim of cybercrime.

Long distance relationships can be tough if we aren't smart enough to distinguish between true love or a toxic one.

We keep playing constantly the non-sure game until we got to answer: Truth or Dare?

- Blue

"Long distance relationships are hard, but they are also incredible. If you can love, trust, respect and support each other from distance then you'll be unstoppable once you´re physically together" 

Summer's Life

After 2 weeks I decided to keep writing, even if I don´t have any follower, this is a good therapy for myself. 

So, the last 2 weeks were insane. Demi Lovato left the hospital and started her rehab and everyone is happy about it. Also, I and my family got a little puppy and it been a challenging journey but also, a funny one too.

Although, unfortunately, my holidays are getting over and I only have a month left. It looks pretty much but it's not because I feel that I haven't recharge my batteries yet and I´m not strong enough to start fighting again but on my deepest mind I think I am.

The best thing I decided to start doing it was read the Demi Lovato´s book "Staying strong: 365 a year", somehow she is helping me to be more confident and fearless. It is strange how simple words can change you inside and change your life.

2018 its been my year and I´m sure 2019 it will be as well.

-Blue