All of my life I didn't care to much about my friend's friend. But as much as I ve growing up I became less naive and started to see the real and truth picture about things and one of the things I would rather not be it was being jealous when it s about friendships.
Due to wanting to be in "the center of everything" I have become more jealous about my friends and I really get mad when they go to somewhere and don't invite me or something.
This is only for being jealous? No! I know that my friends are not the best ones but until I got into university they are all what I have.
So today, 4 friends of mine went to somewhere after school, I saw it and also other people from the group saw and we all asked where did they went. And I m really upset cause I m more "friend" of some of them than one there and still I wasn't invited.
I don't know why, but I don't know what to do... It seems that the girls only want friendships with skinny girl than other that have an extra pound or wear a extra size.
I m just so fucking upset and sad and this sound crazy but that s what I m feeling. I feel lonely, I feel betrayed, I feel depressed and don't have no one to talk with me
I m dying inside and I don't know what to do next.
-Blue
