I was 13/14 and my friend A had a good life at the time...good grades, good friends, she was a national champion swimmer and had a thing that every teenage girl wants...a boyfriend. She was always talking about him and how she missed him; her life looked like a dream for me. My self-esteem was low, low confidence, none goals. I was living every day a life just because I needed to.
I needed something to show her that I had a good life too. So I ended up to say that a friend of mine (B), who I used to talk daily and I had a crush on, was my boyfriend. He did not live in the same city as I lived so everything was set on the internet.
This took 3 months until she found out everything. Until there, I turned a simple best friends messages with B into a bf/gf chat to show her. I created a lot of scenarios as a drama movie, including, meetings that never happened. I was so obsessed that eventually, I started to use a ring that I had and I used to say he offered him to me when he asked me to be his girlfriend.
A found out, she told her best friend so there are only a few persons that know the truth but when this story comes up again I feel the anxiety, the pressure, a bad person.
Nowadays, I'm always afraid when I play truth or dare with my friends; if they ask me something like "Why did you lie about dating B?"
I felt jealous of everyone on earth that had their life'love and I did not. I felt that I needed something to have the attention of my friends. I needed that at the time no matter what I needed to invent.
I think karma hit us stronger than we do and I feel that I will never be able to move on and forget what I did. I will always be afraid if everyone will know that I am a liar...or I was. After what happened I just try to avoid the lies. I learned and it won't ever happen again.
A simple lie can change your future mentally; get your fears high and your person small.
Sometimes a big mouth makes you a small person on earth, no matter how regret is you.
-Blue
-Blue
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